yikes!!!!

Hey lovebugs!! So I decided to post this blog because I wanted to spread positivity and shed some light through my experiences in regards to set backs in life and how I have bounced back and become stronger through the strife. This post is gonna be a little difficult and uncomfortable to talk about to hang in there with me and try to remember that God has always got our backs and we can always take every opportunity as a learning experience; even though you may feel low and think that the world is conspiring against you, I encourage that you look on the positive side and reflect on everything that you are grateful for! That is always what seems to help me whenever I am upset or feeling discouraged. So we have all been there, had so many great day that we can't count but then low and behold you make a mistake and it feels like you couldn't be any worse of a person or anyone worse as a ____ , fill in the blank with whatever word applies to you. Each day goes by and you find yourself relaxed and comfortable and then whatever happens or whatever creeps into your mind instantly causes worry, anxiety, mood swings which then cause you to lash out at the people you love. I have personally dealt with this play by play too many times to count. I tend to dwell on the stress and the worry of often times an event that has not even occurred yet. I become sick to my stomach and yell and scream at the closest person around me. I begin jumping to extremes and speaking rudely despite my intentions because I have allowed myself to become a victim to fear and doubt. When you allow the devil in your heart, you are putting yourself through trials and pains that you should not have to experience. Worrying does not cause any good; ask me I have plenty of experience when it comes to the repercussion of anxiety. I have bad days where I lay in my bed curled in a ball not wanting to leave; I stress myself out to the point where I am hyperventilating; I have built up layers of knots on my shoulders causing an unevenness in my shoulders leading to shoulder blade pain. Looking back through my years of middle school and high school, I regret how I handled situations knowing that I could have prevented them and shifted my perspectives on occurrences in my day to day life. A frequently problem I still struggle with is how I respond to others when I do not get the answer I wish t hear. Often times when I am talking to my parents, I will cause arguments through raising my voice and cutting to the extremes. I begin doubting my abilities as a student, daughter ect. My insecurities start a chain reaction in my mind, much like gears twisting in a clock. I spiral way out of control and end up over stressing about literally anything in my life that I am dealing with. I let my fear and worry overpower my faith and my mindset of positivity. This constant wave of anxiety and stress beats down on an individuals body and if it get to the point can cause actually sickness. But this can be prevented!! Worrying is a normal part of life but we can control ow we allow the stress to affect us. There is such thing as positive and negative stress and I think that how we balance out the two is a lesson that needs to be taught in schools. Positive stress can come from wanting to get a good grade on a project. You wish to do your absolute best; this is a good source to compile energy and a small amount of stress towards. Now if you were becoming frantic about every single page being perfect and spending to much time on how it looks rather than the actual content, this can be an example of negative stress. This example is actually a very common one that I used to experience in my teenage years. Again I repeat allowing stress to consume you can begin to take a toll on your body and your mind. How we choose to bounce back and handle problems that come up in our lives is what defines us and is what makes us stronger individuals. When set backs occur, do not dwell on the failure but be persistent in continuing to achieve your goals. Bumps are suppose to come up in our roads every once in while because no one's lives are perfect. I encourage all of you to not let a wrinkle in your life cause you to spiral and worry about what might happen. Focus on now and focus on how you can turn the situation around, this is the mindset I am still trying to use."Yikes" is going to be a common word that pops up, but allow yourself to use the faults and the setbacks to be opportunities. Move on from the worry and the stress and pursue your personal goals with determination and positivity.

Again like always please always reach out if you need to talk, I am here (: xoxoxo