Just your average self confidence post... SIKE!

What is up everybody!!! It's been a whole minute since I posted a new blog but as I sat in my dorm room contemplating on completing yet another homework assignment, I decided to take my own advice and do something I deem as fun in between the long hours of staring at my computer trying to understand the never ending amounts of work. So today's sappy shpeal is about *dun dun dun* BEING THE MOST CONFIDENT YOU YOU CAN BE. Please excuse all of the caps I am seriously so tired but wanted to talk to you guys about a never ending problem that all women and girls face at some point in their lives: the feeling of not being good enough. Now if you are reading this and thinking to yourself "oh no, this is just another average post about how you are good enough and you should not have to change for other people" welllll then stop reading now. JKJK!! Keep reading because I can promise you that this is not your average post about self confidence. I am going to explain to you all the numerous reasons why each single one of you are perfect in your own ways but I am going to take a spin on the whole giving advice things because face it if you know me I do try and give advice but honestly I am not the best at it because I have still not experienced special milestones that one would normally face at my age of 18. But anyways lets dive right into my long, but not boring, talk about self confidence. Okay so first let me be honest about how I have felt in the past and exactly what I have done to change that negative feeling. So as some of you know my "relationship" life is basically non-existent, like as in I have never been in a real relationship with a boy before. Throughout middle school and high school I did not date/was ever asked about by anyone, like literally not one single guy that I know of liked me while I was in school. And if you know me personally I struggled with this concept of self-love because I never felt the reassurance that I was enough for anyone. Instead of feeling confident I thought about how gross I was, why no one liked me, and all of the aspects about myself that I wish I could change. The words self confidence were not in my vocabulary until my friends around me noticed that I was no longer acting myself. They saw a sadness cast over my face and heart as well as a change in my attitude that I had not even noticed myself. I was irritable and angry at myself because I felt responsible for that fact that I was unlikeable. I was ashamed of myself and embarrassed. I struggled with the reflection I saw in the mirror because I thought that I was unworthy to be loved. I know that some of you might be feeling this way now as you venture into your worlds of love and excitement. But just know that the way that I use to feel or the way you might be feeling now could not be farther from the truth. Not to get to biblical on some of you, but God made each one of us individual. He made us to be quirky, shy, humorous, sporty, adventurous, artistic, you name it. God created you to be the 100% best you you can be. If i have not said it yet, you will hear me say it a thousand times but FORGET what other people think because you are PERFECT just the way you are. And take my advice if someone tells you other wise and you are too scared to talk to them and tell them that they are wrong, feel free to reach out to me because y'all all know I will not hesitate to call them out for their stupidity in calling you any less of the beautiful, amazing individual that you are. So I promised I would give y'all all the reasons as to why every single reader is unique and perfect and hey I do not disappoint. But lowkey I know that some people are more personal about opening up so if you are dealing with self confidence issues and would rather text me to talk, feel free I literally live on my phone and would be more than happy to text, call, Facetime anyone so all you have to do is reach out!! Anyways back to my reasons for why y'all are all AWESOME; numero uno would be that you are reading this blog... haha jk. Y'all all are so incredible that I can barely form the right words to describe how completely awestruck I am by the people I continue to meet everyday. No one person is alike and that is my first reason. Not two single people, even twins, are 100% alike. Everyone is different and that is a GOOD thing! Do not try and conform yourself to other people or their expectations of who you should be. Be your own person and be confident about it! Reason number two, and I personally say this to each reader, you are so much better than you see your self as. You all have no idea the insane amount of beauty that I see everyday, and believe me others see it to. I personally have struggled with my appearance in the past but let me be clear I do not anymore because I know that I am beautiful inside and out and so are all of you. Do not judge yourself on your acne, or your nose, or fill in the blank. You are gorgeous whether you think so or not. God did not make ugly people, he made people with flaws so that we can own our beauty and stand up for ourself when people try to question it. Let me say it again so it can sink in, you all are beautiful!!!! Now if you still have doubts about your self confidence REACH OUT! My last shred of advice would be to be your own person and to not let anyone take away your self confidence or your self worth. You all have no idea how perfect you are despite that flaws that you might find in yourself. Each person is exactly who they are meant to be. So again I say, reach out to me through any of my social medias if you do not have my number, or text me, call me anything. I am here for all of you. I hope that this little rant helps you to possibly identify what is holding you back from yourself or even boost your confidence because that is my ultimate mission is to make sure that everyone knows that they are enough to be loved. You here that, you personally are enough! Okay guys goodnight for now, I will try and start posting maybe once every week or once every two weeks, whatever works for my schedule but feel free to shoot me a text or call because I am always in the mood for a pick me up during a long day of homework. xoxoxo night night